Are you counting the days til you leave?

I am on my way to my next country and a new continent, Seoul, South Korea.  I will teach english in a hogwon program.  This is something I have wanted to do for a while, since about 2010 when I heard about it.  I have not felt the time was right to do it until now.  So, once again, The Lord worked everything out and I leave on August 15th to start my new job on August 17th.

For the past few days I have been super sad, borderline depressed, about going.  I just figured I was sad because I have such a GREAT life here.  I could not fully put my finger on why until tonight.

A dear friend of mine asked me, "Are you counting the days til you leave?".
It wasn't until I started responding to this text that I realized what was going on inside me.  Here is my response:

The countdown has me an emotional wreck since 2 days ago. I have a few moments of excitement, but generally I am super sad, boarding depressed. I have such a great life, in general, here. I don't wanna leave, but I think I've known for a while this is what in supposed to do. And now is the time to do it.
However, I don't think I ever pictured me doing this "alone"(unwed). I am having such deep sadness about the process and I believe this reason is at the core of the sadness.
I have NEVER been the person that is sadden by not being married (yet). I've always been so independent and non-dependent. This is just the first thing I've encountered where I had the desire to be married when I do it.
However, I fully understand that I am to do this and I strongly believe I'm to do it right now. 

So today I have to remember, God's leading me where he wants me.  If you read this and wanna pray for me, please do.

Laters Ya'll,

miss Phyl